Alone & Ready To Bone.

Haha

Tags: lol alone bone

Last night I got assigned to the isolation unit of the hospital. There is a patient there with Pulmonary Tuberculosis that needs a one-on-one nursing care. I had lots of problem during my shift. First and foremost, it was very hot in there. It’s as if I’m training to be in hell. I was sweating like a pig the whole time. Second, there was no one there to help me. No one to help me pull up or turn the patient to sides. Third, I was wearing an N95 mask the whole time and let me tell you that it’s very difficult to breath when you’re wearing this personal protective equipment. And lastly it was creepy because I was all alone with no one to talk to. The good thing about being there? I got a chance to watch TV all night long. Hehe. I had an American Idol marathon in Starworld. I got the chance to listen to Jessica Sanchez’s version of Stuttering which I thought was pretty good. She deserved the save. After 8 hours, I went home severely dehydrated. Haha.

Loneliness at its finest.

Loneliness at its finest.

All Alone.

Whether you like it or not, Alone will be something you’ll be quite a lot.

And when you’re alone, there’s a very good chance you’ll meet things that scare you right out of your pants. There are some, down the road between hither and yon, that can scare you so much you won’t want to go on.

But on you will go though the weather be foul. On you will go though your enemies prowl. On you will go though the Hakken-Kraks howl. Onward up many a frightening creek, though your arms may get sore and your sneakers may leak. On and on you will hike. And I know you’ll hike far and face up to your problems whatever they are.

A week ago, I had this very peculiar dream. I was riding a jeepney on a dark and stormy night. I was all alone and was frightened by the idea of why I was still out of the house during those hours. I was scared while looking at the trees that looked like shadows lurking by the side of the road. My heart was beating fast thinking of the possibility of unfortunate events that might happen during the ride. I didn’t know what to do. So you know what I did? I PRAYED. I just sat there and pray. I don’t remember what I prayed for. I just talked to God and I remember praying the rosary. Immediately after I started praying, I wasn’t so scared anymore. The trees still looked scary as hell and the streets remained dark and gloomy. My heart was still beating rapidly but I had this unexplainable feeling of warmth and security inside me. This time, I felt confident traveling all by myself.  This time, I was sure that I was going to get to my destination safe and sound.

A week ago, I had this very peculiar dream. I was riding a jeepney on a dark and stormy night. I was all alone and was frightened by the idea of why I was still out of the house during those hours. I was scared while looking at the trees that looked like shadows lurking by the side of the road. My heart was beating fast thinking of the possibility of unfortunate events that might happen during the ride. I didn’t know what to do. So you know what I did? I PRAYED. I just sat there and pray. I don’t remember what I prayed for. I just talked to God and I remember praying the rosary. Immediately after I started praying, I wasn’t so scared anymore. The trees still looked scary as hell and the streets remained dark and gloomy. My heart was still beating rapidly but I had this unexplainable feeling of warmth and security inside me. This time, I felt confident traveling all by myself.  This time, I was sure that I was going to get to my destination safe and sound.

Sometimes I just want to be alone with my thoughts and just watch the sun set.

Sometimes I just want to be alone with my thoughts and just watch the sun set.

Why do I suddenly feel being left behind by everyone? 
I’ll be fine, even if I’m on my own.

Why do I suddenly feel being left behind by everyone? 

I’ll be fine, even if I’m on my own.